I'm suffering from depression and unsure what else.

Hello and thanks for reaching out with your question.  This is a very big first step you've taken toward healing, and I give you a lot of credit for having the strength and determination to do so.  And understand that our paths through life are sometimes rocky, sometimes smooth, and life will always throw us some curveballs along the way.  You will learn a great deal from this challenging time that will help you navigate other times in your life when you might be stuck and wondering how to move forward.  Engaging in therapy with a good therapist will enable you to learn from this loss, and move beyond.

Relationships thrive and we stay within them, or they end.  You don't need me to tell you that, it's obvious, I know.  Not knowing the circumstances of what you've been through and lost, it's clear this is significant.  To help you move through the grief of this loss, to help you to rediscover who you are and your purpose, you will benefit from working in therapy and doing the learning and growing that is possible.  You will learn how to cope in a positive way, and how to manage the symptoms of the decline you noted.   You will also learn the "whys" around this rapid decline making this an opportunity like no other...the chance to understand how your mind, heart and body are responding to this loss.

In the meantime, there are behaviors and activities that will enable you to lift your mood.  Journaling your feelings is an excellent way of recognizing what you're feeling and why.  Journaling can even include a "good bye" letter, when you're ready.  Starting a regular practice of mindfulness will help you learn how to bring your thinking to the present, and this is extremely healing.  You can seek out apps  for mindfulness, or even some free material on youtube to get you started.  Taking good care of yourself is critical now, and always.  Good sleep, a good diet, moderate exercise and relaxation are super important and directly influence how you will feel.  Lastly, waking up to a practice of gratitude can be extremely helpful and lift your mood for the day. Think of the little things you're grateful for, as well as those amazing gifts you have in your life - your daughter, pets and job.

Wishing you the best as you grow and learn from this loss.  Be well!