Why do I feel so lonely? Is it something I can prevent or do I need extra help?
Aly, Thank you for your question. I am glad you are here.
First of all, the loneliness you are feeling after a move is completely normal. Moving and adjusting to a different space is stressful for everyone. Three months is not that long of a time to have adjusted to the new place. However, you should start to adjust as time goes on. For the feelings of being down at night, I will list a coping skill that you can use as you battle those feelings:
Peace Begins With Me
There is a quick practice that is involved with Kundalini yoga, which involves a breathing exercise that can be done quietly and anywhere that you are. This technique can help you stay centered when you’re feeling overwhelmed or out of control.
Press your thumb into your index finger, then your middle finger, followed by the ring finger, and lastly the pinkie finger.
Practice this a few times. Go slowly. After you get the hang of this, practice saying these words as you touch thumb to index finger- “Peace,” thumb to middle finger, “Begins,” thumb to ring finger, “With,” thumb to pinkie finger, “Me.”
Breathe deeply and fully as you practice this technique.
Another coping skill that you can use when dealing with feelings of loneliness and depression is cognitive restructuring.
Cognitive Restructuring
Cognitive Restructuring is a process of identifying your negative and irrational thoughts. A negative or an irrational thought is called a cognitive distortion. EVERYONE has cognitive distortions; however, if you are a person who has a lot of cognitive distortions, it can contribute to developing a mental disorder such as depression or anxiety. How can you identify and challenge these cognitive distortions?
Step 1: Understand how powerful cognitive distortions are in influencing your mood. For example, it's your birthday. Your friend does not call to wish you a happy birthday. Your thought is, "My friend doesn't care about me the way that I care about them; I called them on their birthday." Your thought makes you FEEL hurt. Your feeling of hurt turns into the behavior of avoiding your friend for the next month. The cognitive distortion of "My friend doesn't care about me the way that I care about them" yielded the chain
of events that led you to feel hurt and to behave by avoiding your friend. Thoughts are POWERFUL; they start the chain of events to everything.
Step 2: Increase your awareness of your thoughts. Learn to identify your cognitive distortions. Look for negative emotions and try to pinpoint what thoughts started those feelings.
Step 3: Keep a Thought Record/Thought Log. Break down your experience into a record. For example: The situation was ______________, My thoughts were ________________, My emotions were ________________, My behaviors were ___________________. An alternate thought could've been __________________________.
I hope the above tips help.
The second thing I wanted to address was the sexual trauma that you have endured throughout your life. It would be beneficial for you to work with a trauma-informed therapist to address these incidences that you describe. I am sorry that this happened to you. Trauma can mimic symptoms of anxiety and depression, among others. Trauma can also restructure the brain and the body essentially keeps score of the trauma. I encourage you to do some research on your own about the effects of trauma on mental health and on physical health. I'd like to discuss this with you further, if you are interested.
I wish you well and trust you will have a wonderful week ahead.
Sara Lacaria, LPC
Better Help Therapist