I was so at peace with myself, how can can found that internal peace again?

Dear Mo, we share some similar experiences.

I sense a spiritual yearning in what you wrote... That you're searching for meaning in yourself and life.  Maybe still trying to find exactly how you fit in the World (with a capital "W").

You're likely undergoing a lot of stress from the divorce, perhaps a share of disappointment at things not turning out the way you had hoped, and maybe some isolation as far as not having anyone in your immediate circle with whom you feel you can fully open up about what's going on in your life right now.

I found your ongoing quest for what now seems a lost inner peace and harmony interesting. Perhaps a return to that former state of harmony is not even possible... Maybe part of it was founded in a more youthful, carefree state of mind, and what you're really looking for is a NEW inner balance.  Something that incorporates the challenges and growth you've gone through and are still coping with now?

Life is growth, and although change is often uncomfortable, the positive side of this is that once we get through it, we come to new plateaus in life... We see further (so to speak), and gain new perspectives on the World (not just on who we are, how we look at others, but on how we want to approach living in general).

Finally, I found your description of yourself as a social person very positive, and the idea that maybe it's time to focus more on yourself interesting. I would have to hear more about this to comment, but it sounds like an area worthy of investigation.

At any rate, you're clearly intelligent, insightful, and willing to work on yourself... In short, you have a lot going for you. 

If you want to talk more, sign up with me for a session.  I'd be happy to try and help. 

-Dave