What are some ways or strategies to dig deeper into the different causes of why/who I am?

Hi Tony.  Thank you for reaching out.  Our past and childhood can affect how we act and deal with things as we get older.  

To gain better understanding of who we are and identify triggers, we first need to recognize our emotions and  how they lead to our behaviors.  

Journaling is helpful to self reflect and identify emotions. Pay attention to the people, situations, and surroundings that deplete energy and also the ones that enhance and boost mood. Understanding who we are can help us make better more informed choices. 

Recognize negative thought patterns, practice positive self talk and implement affirmations.

Practice mindfulness and meditate to ground yourself and stay focused on the present moment. By staying in the moment, you will reduce stress and anxiety and manage your mood. 

Build self awareness.  Recognize the values and morals you live your life by.  What motivates you? What makes you happy, sad, angry, and anxious? By recognizing and naming your feelings, you will be better in tune to your emotions. 

Write a letter to your younger self.  What do you want your younger self to know and be aware of? What goals and dreams did you have as a child?

Discover what you're passionate about, pursue learning more about these things. Spend more time doing things you enjoy and that make you feel confident and happy. 

Be aware of the types of people you surround yourself with.  Are they supportive and there for you in time of need? 

Seek professional help, meet with a mental health counselor to talk about your past and discuss important events that have shaped your life.  By expressing your feelings in a safe, judgment free space you will discover how your past has molded you and helped define who you are. With this knowledge and understanding, you will be better equipped to make appropriate adjustments and adapt your thoughts and behaviors accordingly. 

Should you discover past trauma, your therapist will help provide healing and teach you coping skills.  You will process these events and learn to manage any triggers that may be occurring as a result.