What can I do I am so depressed and things are hard I'm looking for a job I can't seem to find one.

Hello! I am so glad you reached out for guidance by asking your question.

It sounds like you are in a hard place right now. Feeling depressed and looking for a job are both really difficult, especially if they're happening at the same time. You also mention a phobia that you have, which definitely makes things hard as well. The fear of death/dying is definitely a common fear for almost everybody, but when it gets to the phobia level, it can absolutely interfere with your daily functioning. It would be really great for you to reach out and connect with a counselor to start therapy. With a therapist's help, you can learn to manage everything that's going on right now and how you are feeling. 
It sounds like from your question you've also suffered maybe some losses recently, which can also lead to feeling more depressed and increase the symptoms of the phobia that you have. Connecting with somebody and talking about your fears, and finding tools and strategies to help cope with that, as well as to help cope with depression, would be really beneficial.

As far as your job search is going I know this is a stressful situation.  Do you have support with this?  Are you reaching out to people you know about any possible leads?  This can be very helpful to do and makes the process a lot easier.  

As I mentioned above, it really sounds like there are several factors going on in your life right now that would be helpful to talk to somebody about - whether it's a professional like a counselor or a friend that you trust. It's important for you to have somebody to listen. Depression can be debilitating if you don't reach out for some sort of guidance your help. I am glad to hear that you're on the job search, but like you said that has not been easy as well as your fear and potential losses you have had. I would encourage you to talk to somebody about all of this as I know it will be very helpful. I wish you the best.