How could I move pass a breakup?

Hello Belladonna, so a few questions.  How long were you and your fiance together?  Were there any red flags that you can reflect on or did you feel completely blindsided by the break up?  I understand how deeply this break up had to affect you since you had to take leave from work.  1.5 years is a long time.  What do you feel you have accomplished in this time to help yourself heal from the breakup? 

Furthermore, I saw you stated you hate your job.  Do you feel as though there may also be an avoidance of returning to work?  Does your feeling towards returning to a job that you dislike make you hesistent to want to return or perhaps something at your job may remind you of the relationship.  Also, did you feel any judgment from your co-workers about the relationship or the break up? 

Sorry for so many questions but it seems as though what you're describing could be coming from several places.  I'm sorry that you have had to suffer with all of this for the past 1.5 years and I believe that you would benefit heavily from ongoing therapy to process some of these problems. 

Have you started working with a therapist yet or are you considering beginning therapy.  Through working one-on-one with a therapist you will be able to process the feelings related to the break up as well as your feelings towards your career.  Do you feel as though you disliked your job when you were working there or have these feelings started more recently. 

I believe reflecting on how you are feeling, preferably through therapy or even other methods you could begin today like journaling, self-reflection, meditating, etc. 

Finally, you will want to ask yourself are you ready to begin to process through all of this.  In other words, what prompted you to seek out help now.  If the answer if yes, I am ready to begin feeling better and move on then starting the things I suggested below is a great start.  You've already taken the first step by asking this question and seeking help.  I wish you nothing but the best on your journey!