Why do I feel hurt like I've been through some sort of trauma when my life has been really good?

Thank you for contacting BetterHelp.  So you grew up in a strict Christian household where your sisters did not lean into the faith of your parents and grandparents. You decided to be the "perfect daughter" and granddaughter and just followed the rules.  When you moved out, you decided to now no longer go to their church. It sounds like you may be grieving the "loss" of your parents in some respects. 

You worked so hard in the family to be seen as the "perfect daughter" and waited until you left the house to make your own decisions. It appears that you went to your sisters to get understanding and compassion and they seem to express resentment and anger - which you were not expecting.  It sounds like they applauded you for leaving the church, however, you did not get support and compassion. Grief, guilt, and shame are some powerful emotions that you may be experiencing now.  

You recognize that the Christian life as your parents raised you was not where you wished to be at this time in life.  You had hoped that they would understand that you needed some space from church to explore and find your way.  Your parents taught you the values of the faith and now that it is your time to explore those values - your parents are angry and upset that you choose to do so outside of the Church.  It does not sound like (like your sisters) that you wish to abandon all and never go back - however, you are in your own place, working to make your own decisions, and find your own way.  This is what your parents were raising you to do after all.  

The counselors at BetterHelp are here to support you.  We can help you through the grief, pain, and your disappointment that you may feel with your parents and sisters.  We are here to compassionately listen and help you sort through the issues.  Many counselors go through their own faith and spiritual journeys themselves and help others go through them as well.

The counselors at BetterHelp can walk with you in your journey to find healing.  They can explore with you.  I hope you decide to see what BetterHelp can do for you - good luck with your journey.