What To Do When Childhood Trauma Holds You Back
Updated July 03, 2019
Reviewer Melinda Santa
Many people have not had ideal childhoods. If you've experienced childhood trauma or abuse, you are not alone. Your trauma is real, and your feelings are valid. There are helpful resources and tools for you to learn how to cope with your childhood trauma, and move forward toward a fulfilling and productive life.
What Happens When You Don't Heal from Childhood Trauma?
According to the National Center for Mental Health Promotion and Youth Violence Prevention, 26% of children in the United States will either witness or be involved in a traumatic event before they turn four-years-old. Many of us have experienced difficult times as children. When those situations are not only challenging but traumatic, it can be excruciating and hard to cope. It's not easy to face the pain you experienced as a result of childhood trauma, but it's necessary. If you've been avoiding your painful childhood memories, you may be experiencing nightmares or flashbacks. You might be having panic attacks as a result of your childhood trauma. You may be prone to episodes of depression because you can't seem to let go of what happened to you as a child.
Your trauma starts interfering with your everyday functioning; that's when you need to confront these issues. You may notice that you're lashing out at people in interpersonal relationships and you don't know why. As you dig deeper, you discover that the wounds from childhood are still affecting you, and you're rehashing your trauma as an adult.
Your childhood trauma wounds won't heal unless you address them. You may feel shame or guilt because of what happened to you. These are natural feelings to have, but they won't help you get past the events. For you to start healing from the wounds of childhood, you need to face your past. You don't have to do this alone. One of the best ways to start addressing your trauma from childhood is by going to therapy. When you work with a therapist, whether that's online or in your local area, you have a person who cares about what you've experienced. They want you to heal.
BetterHelp Wants You to Heal from Your Past
At BetterHelp, the licensed online counselors have worked with people who have experienced childhood trauma and helped them work through their painful memories. After talking through the wounds of childhood, clients have found it easier to live fulfilling lives. If you prefer traditional, face-to-face therapy, this is also an effective method for coping and recovering from childhood trauma.
You didn't choose what happened to you, but you no longer have to run from the pain. When you work with a counselor at BetterHelp, you are making a conscious decision to get help with your traumatic childhood and relief. You can talk about how your trauma is hurting you and stop letting it hold you back. You might not realize how detrimental your traumatic childhood is until you enter online therapy. But once you do, your therapist can support you in doing the emotional work to heal. Read below for some reviews of BetterHelp counselors.
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Start by Understanding Childhood Trauma
There's a difference between having a bad childhood memory and experiencing trauma. Not all negative experiences are traumatic. If you can understand what childhood trauma is, you may find out why you feel and behave the way you do now. If you realize that you have none of the symptoms nor the background of real childhood trauma, understanding what it is can make you a more compassionate person. Either way, the first step to understanding childhood trauma is to learn the definition. Learning about your family's past can also provide insight into understanding one's trauma.
What Is Considered Childhood Trauma?
To be traumatic, an event not only has to be negative, but it also has to be painful. Trauma is so impactful that it is beyond your ability to cope in healthy ways. While traumas of all kinds fit this description, the most harmful are the traumas that are dealt out intentionally in interpersonal relationships. Childhood traumas include:
Physical abuse - When someone in authority over you hurts you in any tangible way, including cuts, bruises, scratches, burns, broken bones, or loss of consciousness.
Emotional abuse - When the abuser intentionally causes injury to your dignity or psychological integrity. Some examples are threats, scapegoating, confining you to a closet or tying you to a chair, shaming, or forcing you to cause yourself pain.
Emotional neglect - If your abuser failed to nurture you or give you the affection you needed.
Sexual abuse - If you were subjected to unwanted sexual touching or activity by a caregiver or other adult, usually someone close to the family.
Physical neglect - If your caregiver failed to provide you with the physical resources you needed, such as food, clothing, or shelter.
Natural Disasters - Living through a natural disaster such as a fire, a flood, a tornado or hurricane, or even a drought can cause trauma, too. However, if the adults in charge of you handled it well, the traumatic effects of it would be minimized.
Loss of Caregiver - When a child loses their parent or another caregiver, the effects can be devastating. Even the youngest children feel the impact, though some adults assume they're too young to understand what has happened. While it's true they may not understand, it is this very inability to understand that causes them more trauma and distress.
Trauma does not discriminate and can happen to anyone.
How Childhood Trauma Affects Your Brain
Childhood may leave a mark on your body as well as your mind. When the trauma is severe and prolonged, it also affects the structure of the child's brain. During childhood, your brain is busy growing and developing. When trauma disrupts this process, the results can be profoundly damaging.
Blocked Neural Pathways
Neurons make up the networks in the brain that link together to regulate your brain function. The earlier the childhood trauma happened, the more the brain's development is altered. The purpose of brain development is to enhance your ability to survive.
However, when you grow up in a traumatizing environment, your brain develops in a way to help you survive in that environment. The neural pathways that work in that dysfunctional environment become overdeveloped, while other pathways aren't as well-developed as they would generally be. Early childhood trauma disrupts the proper formation of these pathways, while trauma that happens later in life changes the way the pathways are refined.
Since the traumatizing environment is so different from most of the situations you'll face later in life; you may have problems adapting to those new situations. Some people can't cope outside of such an environment, so they end up seeking the same type of dysfunctional relationships that caused the trauma.
Effects of Childhood Trauma on Adults
The effects of childhood trauma on adults can be severe and far-reaching. Trauma in childhood can change your thoughts, feelings, and behaviors, and may negatively impact your physical health long after the trauma is over.
1. Damage to the Self
One of the earliest tasks of childhood development is forming a healthy self-concept. Throughout your life, you think and behave about the self-concept you've established. When you experience childhood trauma, especially prolonged trauma, your self-concept is malformed and altered. Developing a more positive outlook and self-esteem can assist in altering your view of self. Learning positive affirmations as well as learning to love yourself through it all is important, and (along with other similar methods like cognitive-behavioral therapy) can actually alter your brain in a positive way.
2. Thinking of Yourself as a Victim
If you suffered childhood trauma due to a natural disaster or the loss of a parent or caregiver, it was probably hard for you to understand why that happened to you. As a child, you may have assumed that god or the universe was against you. You may have falsely learned that events that happened to you were some form of cosmic punishment.
Even more, if you were abused or neglected, you may have seen yourself only regarding that abuse or neglect. Your identity was formed in that victim role, and you may have a tough time thinking yourself as someone who has power over their own life.
3. Passive-Aggressive Behavior
As a survivor of childhood trauma, you may have a lot of anger that you don't know how to handle. Typically, people with childhood trauma express their anger in passive-aggressive ways. They don't want to openly show their anger because they fear what would happen if they did. Instead, they strike out with sarcasm that they can later call a joke, or with intentional mistakes, they can then claim were innocent.
4. Self-Abandonment (Being Passive)
One of the most harmful effects of childhood trauma is the total abandonment of the self. Rather than having an opinion, expressing a need, or telling people what they want, they hide these things in an attempt to keep the peace. Later, passivity becomes a long-standing pattern. You abandon yourself and accept whatever is given to you by the people in your life.
Effects on Physical and Mental Health
Another way to look at the impact of childhood trauma on adults is the types of physical and mental problems people who have had those experiences tend to develop.
1. Attachment Disorders
Children traumatized between the ages of 6 months and three years are prone to having trouble forming healthy attachments to others. Psychologists refer to the resulting disorder as reactive attachment disorder (RAD). RAD affects your ability to create adequate social relationships and affects your mood and behavior. You may have trouble trusting anyone.
2. Poor Physical Health
When people have been traumatized early in life, they often have health problems later on that can be traced to the traumatizing events.
3. Poor Emotional Regulation
Emotional regulation means the ability to recognize, name, and deal with feelings. After experiencing childhood trauma, you may have a hard time knowing, understanding, and managing your emotions.
4. The Altered States of Consciousness
When childhood trauma happens, mainly if it goes on for a long time, children may easily fall into a dissociative state. Because they are children, people may not recognize these states as altered states of consciousness. Years later, these people may return to altered states of consciousness during stressful times.
5. Lowered Cognitive Ability
When children are systematically abused or neglected, they may develop cognitive problems. Some examples are poor verbal skills, memory problems, problems focusing, or concentration, unable to create adequate cognitive skills or specific learning disabilities.
6. Inconsistent Self-Concept
People who suffered childhood trauma may have an inconsistent self-concept. They don't know how to interpret the thoughts and feelings they have about themselves or distinguish their thoughts and feelings from what others say about them. They may see themselves as competent with one group of people but utterly incompetent with others.
7. Poor Behavioral Control
People who experience childhood trauma may become impulsive adults. They have a hard time controlling their behavior and tend to do what they feel at the present moment without thinking of the consequences they'll face later on.
Find out If You Suffered Childhood Trauma
If you're like most people, you know you had some unpleasant experiences in your childhood. Everybody does. The question is: Were my experiences truly traumatic? Another question you need the answer to is: Did I suffer traumas I don't remember now? Once you answer these questions for yourself, you can move on to healing and building a life you can enjoy. Do you notice any of the following symptoms in yourself? Survivors of childhood trauma may exhibit both physical and emotional symptoms. Physical symptoms include:
- Not making eye contact
- A chronic feeling of exhaustion
- Anxiety and panic attacks
- Shallow breathing
- Chronic back pain
- Feeling unable to move or having little ability to sit still
- Bodily numbness
- Poor health
- Fainting or dizziness
- Dry mouth
Emotional symptoms of having had childhood trauma include:
- Easily startled
- Trust issues
- Getting into the same type of relationship as the traumatizing one
- Changing yourself to suit your environment
- Being afraid people won't like you or will reject you
- Becoming dependent on others
- Feeling of powerlessness
- Feeling helpless and hopeless
- Taking too much or too little control
- Feeling inadequate
- Avoiding failure at the cost of abandoning your aspirations
Examine Your Childhood Memories
You may be able to remember things that happened to you as a child that you now know were abuse, neglect, or some other form of a traumatic event. It may help to try journaling as a way to get in touch with your childhood experiences and the feelings that accompanied them at the time. If you choose to start therapy, later on, these notes can help you get started.
Talk to Relatives
Adults who have suffered trauma as children may not remember accurate details of the traumatizing events. Or, they might have forgotten what happened altogether. If your past seems like a big question mark, talk to relatives you trust who can help by filling in the parts you don't remember. Although everyone has their perspective, a relative may be able to fill in the details you need to identify and understand the trauma.
Take a Trauma Assessment
The Childhood Trauma Questionnaire is a tool that mental health professionals use to identify the types and severity of child abuse and neglect. The questionnaire has been studied thoroughly in scientific research projects and has proven highly effective. It's a self-report test, meaning that you answer questions about yourself, rating each response from "Never True" to "Very Often True." ACES Study (Adverse Childhood Experiences). If you want to take a test at home, consider the Adverse Childhood Experiences (ACES) Test. Know your ACE score here and learn what it does and doesn't mean.
Talk to a Counselor
If your exploration reveals signs, symptoms, or details of childhood trauma, a counselor can help you find out if you did suffer a childhood trauma. Furthermore, they can help you deal with the feelings you have about it and teach you ways to overcome its effects on your life. Licensed counselors at BetterHelp.com can provide online therapy to help you evaluate and overcome childhood trauma.
A therapist can listen to your story, help you discover how childhood trauma still affects you, and teach you new ways to think about what happened. You can also get help in support groups and by developing healthy relationships with family and friends.
In Support Groups
Many people start trying to address childhood traumas in support groups. Being with people who have been through similar things can help you feel healthier. If others in the group have already dealt with the problems caused by their trauma, they may provide information and resources to help you continue your journey to healing.
While support groups can be helpful, individual therapy gives you the chance to examine the specific trauma you experienced and learn to overcome it in ways that are best suited to you. Another reason to pursue a course of therapy for childhood trauma is that it allows you to interact with a professional who has the education, training, and experience that will help you most.
Healthy Relationships with Family and Friends
As your understanding grows and you begin to process, cope with, and move away from the problems that have held you back, you can learn to have healthier relationships with those close to you. Your therapist can support you as you learn better ways to interact with the people you want in your life. They can teach you to communicate more openly, directly, and effectively. They can also teach you some stress management techniques that can make these encounters more comfortable for you. Then, with healthy relationships in place, you may have a stronger support system than ever before.
Learn How to Move Beyond the Trauma
Moving beyond the effects of childhood trauma may mean that you have to change both your thoughts and behaviors. As you do, your feelings may change as well. Through all these changes, you may feel vulnerable in a way you haven't since you were a child. However, with the support of a mental health professional, you can make the changes that can improve your life dramatically.
If you know or suspect you suffered trauma during your childhood, get help as soon as possible. Counselors are available at BetterHelp.com, and you can sign up for online counseling in just a few minutes. The sooner you get the help you need, the sooner you can begin to heal and start the journey toward the healthy, happy life you deserve.