Can you either help me find a new job that I can not dread going to or help me cope with this one?

Hey SB! 

I'm glad you're reaching out for help.  I think it's important first to clarify that it is outside of our scope here on BetterHelp to do work-based searches for you, but we CAN take a look at what is really going on that may be leading you to want to find a new job, and the underlying aspects that might be important to consider if or when you do look for another job.  

We know that no job is perfect and that unfortunately, people sometimes "sell" jobs as better than what they really are ... but also things change in time.  I think you have to look back at what made you want to take the job in the first place ... going back to the beginning, especially since you did take a pay cut to accept the position. It's important to look at your expectations of both yourself, and of the job / other staff there.  How are things different from what you expected, and can any of that be resolved?  

I think you also have to look at what you feel like you actually want from a job.  We can break it down into a number of factors.  Clearly salary is important, but is it something that you need a definite amount on? 

What about the social aspect?  Are you more of a leader, or do you like to fall under the leadership of someone else, and what qualities do you feel are important for that person to have?  I think it's just as important to "vet" the company that you're wanting to work for as it is for them to ask things of you. 

It sounds like there may be more going on than just the job itself also, but it might be worth talking to your leadership about being unhappy and the idea of modifying your role, if possible, or needing to take a step back to focus on your health to figure out what you really want.  No one deserves to be unhappy at work all the time. Focus on you, and what might help to enhance your experiences. 

I hope this helps! I wish you all the luck in the future!