How do I adjust to a sudden change in my life and environment?

Good morning,

I am happy to give a response.

The most important thing I see that you have said is,  "I am a happier, more connected individual for now I no longer feel fear in speaking how I feel in the inside." How beautiful is that and how brave of you for taking that step! I am sure it could not have been easy.

The first thing is give yourself time.  You are grieving a loss and that does not happen overnight.  Let yourself miss that person.  Whether times were good or bad, they played a part in your life and now they are gone.  That absence needs to be acknowledged so you can move past it and fill it up.

Next, be gentle and compassionate with yourself.  Know that you just took a big step and it is ok to feel sad or confused or happy etc.  Mostly, be proud that you chose YOU over anything else.

Learn from the experience.  You say you had, "gotten complacent and failed to nurture the partnership" Look at that and try to understand why.  What held you back?  How can you do it differently next time? Was there something you were afraid of facing?  You have the opportunity now to become better acquainted with yourself, to understand what is important to you and what is not.  Take responsibility for your part and make the needed changes.  What you do not want to do carry these same patterns into your next relationship. 

Finally, try to look at this as a hopeful beginning.  You get to make your make your life whatever you want it to be.  You no longer have to shape your days around what other people want.  Identify what truly makes you happy and integrate that into your life.  Have you always wanted to learn sailing or do pottery?  Do it!!  Try to fill your life with things that excite, maybe even scare you a little.  Take this opportunity to figure out what you really are interested in an enjoy it.  It will make you excited about life and fill your heart with joy!

We only do this once.  Go for it!