I'm not sure therapy is the best move for me at this point.

Hello. Thank you so much for asking this question. This shows a lot of insight, and an awareness into your thoughts and actions. So I hope that you can acknowledge this, as you continue to reflect on this question. I think it is wonderful that you had such a positive therapy experience, and that you learned so much. It is understandable why you might want to go back to this because you enjoyed it. But you are right in that you have to reflect on the question of do you need it? What I would encourage you to do, is spend some time journaling about this. Write down your thoughts about why it is that you want to engage in therapy again. If it is simply because it was a good experience, or even a comforting experience, one of the questions I would reflect on is do you have this kind of comforting relationship in your life now? If you are longing for the comfort of the therapy relationship because this is currently lacking in your life, then if you can think of ways that you can form these relationships, that would be a good step.

Another thing that I would encourage you to reflect on, is your experiences in childhood. Do you have experiences in childhood that have contributed to possible attachment challenges, that are left unresolved for you? If you can think of things in childhood that are left unresolved, or that still concern you, then perhaps reengaging with therapy is a good idea. Attachment issues have a way of manifesting at different times in our life and in different ways. So if you sense that there is some underlying attachment stuff that you need to talk about, then therapy would be appropriate.

I have a couple more points for you to take into consideration. One is that if you continue to feel like you need a therapist, make an appointment and have an intake done. Allow the therapist to decide if you need therapy, and if so the frequency. It may be helpful for you to have a check in with a therapist once a month, for example. You do not have to meet weekly with the therapist to benefit from talking to somebody. Also, if you do decide to do an intake, your concerns about dependency would be something to bring up with the therapist. Allow the therapist to make a clinical judgment on whether you are dependent on therapy, or whether you would benefit from additional sessions.

I appreciate that you are so insightful in asking this question. You are right that we can become too dependent on things, but after you have taken the time to reflect on the things I have suggested above, and still feel like you would like to talk to a therapist, then by all means, I would encourage you to reach out and have an intake done. There should be no shame about reaching out to somebody for help, or even an evaluation to see if you could benefit from more therapy. I appreciate that you asked this question.